My Disorders

Morning

Yes.
What?
Heh heh. Yes, I have disorders. A lot of disorders and when I thought I already got rid of one, another one appeared. Sometimes I wonder why I become this odd.

#1
Nail Biting and Picking
I know that most kids did this, biting and picking their nails, but it is not supposed to tag along until adulthood. I stopped with the biting because my fingers smelled like slobber and I did (do) not like it, but it is not the case with nail picking. I don't even realize what I did until after I put my right hand on my desk and see dry blood everywhere. People said it has something to do with anxiety, but I don't feel anxious at all. Or maybe I am delusional? and my delusion is that I don't feel anxious. How confusing is that?

#2
Obsessed with Whole Bunch of Things

1. This happens when I have to work in front of my laptop. There is no way, NO WAY I can finish anything without watching Lord of the Rings or Red Cliff or Bones (marathon from season 1) or Dexter (also marathon) or Greys Anatomy or other movies and tv series. So, I always have two windows opened on my laptop, one is Microsoft Office Word and the other one is media player. When I face the iBT writing section, I was just staring at the monitor, blank stare of course. This is insane.
2. I am obsessed with anything that counts like download progress, defragmenting process, anything that stacks into something. I HAVE to watch it moves. So, yes if I'm working on something with my Microsoft Office Words while downloading something else, then I would have three windows opened at the same time; the Words, media player, and the download progress window. None of them is in minimize.
3. This one is not a 'thing'. I was obsessed with someone (X). I basically stalked X for two consecutive years. I dug up like thousands information about X and followed X around. I called it 'in love', but my friends categorized it as 'crazy'.

#3
I Dream About Having Food Farm At Least Once in A Day
Not carrots, not cabbage, not corn. Food. Like spaghetti farm, sandwich invested tree, rivers of coffee, ICED lemon tea, ICED milk tea. Is this kind of imagination normal? I never asked and I never googled it either and I don't have the gut to ask my psychologist cause probably it will prolong my treatment. heh heh heh.

Till next disorders, Fellas
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