Nidya's Dictionary

• I rarely trust people. It is not because I feel that people are bad or something. I just cannot deal with casual relationships. If you want casual relationship with me, then you’d have to be OK with my tremendously thick layers.
• I have assessment period for every person I met. Once I labeled him/ her safe, I’d approach.  If I like him/her, I’d continue to be his/ her friend.
• My intuitions are real. They are not guesswork. I can really feel what you feel.
• I have strong line between what was right and what was wrong, but I think I’m quite open-minded
• I like planning things, but sometimes I spontaneously do something stupid.
• I often omit something. I call it ‘selective disclosure’. I will tell you things about me that sound important, but they really aren’t that important for me.  I’ll tell you about my feeling, but there’s no way I’ll tell you about how deep or intense my feeling is.
• If I say “I’m fine” without saying anything else, then it means I’m not. I just don’t feel the necessity to tell you.
• If I decided to trust you and you betrayed me, there would never be a second chance. Well, there would be, but not in the same way.
• If I decided to trust you, bent every rules in the book just to be with you and you betrayed me, hurt me a lot in the process, I would definitely slam the door in front of your face. Don’t get me wrong, I would not childishly unfriend you in Facebook or block your number in Whatsapp. I would simply forget about you. You are dead to me. Goodbye.
• But if you reach out to me, asking me for help, I’ll always help you, no matter how much I hate you.
• If you, the one I love or trust so much, leave me when I need you the most, there is no telling what would happen next.

Cheers,
Dya